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I'm Back (I know it was very short)

Sunday, November 30, 2008
I know what you are saying right now..back from what? Yea I went on a vacation from the social networks of the internet in order to focus on more important things. Surprisingly it wasn't hard at all. I did find myself wanting to type in myspace.com a couple time, but that's because it was a habit. My hiatus proved nothing to anyone and proved nothing to myself as well. I did it because of the way that I was feeling last week. My focus has been on paying bills and working on projects for RJM Designs. I am starting my own web design company. I am not claiming to be the Da Vinci of websites I am just making money doing something I like to do. I have done a couple sites and am currently working on my own right now, you can stay updated at rjmccollam.com for the companies progress. Right now I am bulding basic websites for locals for an extremely resonable price. Wish me luck on that cause at certain times I can get frustrated, but it is something I would like to grow. Thanksgiving was very good. It was mine and Amy's first together, and can I just say that my wife is an awesome cook. The food was great and I am still enjoying what is left of it. She also decorated a little bit to make it feel like Thanksgiving, she is so creative. In fact right now she is in the bathroom making herself look like Britney Spears for our self proclaimed "Britnet Spears Day" because of the MTV special on tonight (I'm suppose to be dressing up as Justin Timeberlake). Things have not really gotten better since my last post, but I just wanted to be able to come back and do what I want to...blog.

Me and My Hiatus

Sunday, November 23, 2008
There is a lot of shit that is going on right now in life. The days go by day after day and suddenly a week has gone by and I feel like so much and so little has been accomplished. There is this endless list of things to do and there is the pressure of bills and the world that seems to get heavier each day. I have not talked to anyone on the phone or even wanted to really deal with people lately because of everything that is going on. To much is going on to list, but when you are catching an average of 2 mice a day in your own home you know that times aren't the greatest. I really am trying to stay positive and strong, and the fight continues, I just feel like I am getting my ass handed to me right now. This has been the worst/best year of my life. It is crazy that that statement is 100% true. I care less and less about others as of now and really could care less about things like myspace, facebook, and this blog. With that said I plan on taking what I like to look at as a vacation from all of it. I need to focus on what is important and this fake life I lead in these social networks just isn't worth it. I really don't have that many friends right now so I don't have to worry about losing any, but don't expect me to be Mr. Happy these next couple of days, weeks, or even months. I am hitting the "off switch" on a lot of things that I do throughout my day that are pointless. I do appreciate the response I would get from this whether it came in the form of comments, emails, or even phone calls, but honestly none of that is neccessary and I do not want any of that right now. This is about Amy and myself fighting for life and doing what is needed to achieve it. For now I stay secluded...

War All the Time

Saturday, November 8, 2008

I finally have had a chance to take a breath...well at least for the moment. This past week and a half has been the most chaotic week of my life. Just to name a few contributing factors we got a puppy, moved into a house that was no where close to being ready for people to live in, and we were up for 38 hours packing loading and driving to our new place. Amy wrote about this a week ago a little and I don't want to re-write what she wrote so make sure to check her blog out.

Starting with the puppy. Her name is Bucket and we have had her for about a week and a half. This dog is a total Maverick (haha I had to) she is either super hyper and wants to run free and kill everything in her path or she is sleeping. Considering we packed the first night we got her and made her ride along for a 7 hour car ride and are making her continue to watch us unpack and get things settled she has behaved extremely well. She hasn't gotten sick once or gone to the bathroom on the carpet. She is super smart and super curious so she finds ways to escape her play pen and rome around. Once we can get her past the freak out phase and find some mellow moods I think things will be perfect. Oh, and you should watch this dog jump off of things. She doesn't just jump, but she leaps like she is going to swan dive off of everything, regardless of how high it is. It's incredible to watch.

I don't even want to talk about the move, but I will briefly go over it for you.
  • had one day to pack
  • halfway through packing ran out of room on the truck, but somehow made it all fit
  • I got sick on the drive so Amy had to take over and drive 80% of the way
  • our home looked like it just survived a natural disaster
  • spent 3 nights in a motel
  • had to wait 4 days for utilities
  • still have a lot of things that need to be done to our home
It has been so frustrating from the moment we pulled up to our driveway, and it's been one thing after another. At the same time we are where we are now and that is much better than where we were when we got here, I mean at least we got our garbage disposal fixed and working today so the water could drain from the dishwasher and not onto our floor and so we can do dishes now. To say we have faced obsticles would be an understatement and we are not out of hot water yet. We need to start making money.

Right now this is the thing that looms over my head more than anything. Money isn't everything but it damn sure is a lot and has a large affect on a family. I have to start making money and fast. Not only do we need money just to get by, but we need some comfort. I can't describe how much it kills me to be in this situation and have Amy have to stress about it. It is a hard thing to deal with when you can't provide for your family. It takes its toll that is for sure. I do feel however that now that we are 75% close to being settled and creating a routine I will be able to focus a lot of my energy to that.

Right now Amy is in bed and is feeling really really sick. It is so hard to see her feel any pain and I feel helpless which makes the situation worse.

FACT: we will overcome and land on top. I just don't know when that will happen.

PS - We are extremely excited that Obama wona nd will take office in January!

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